The Worst Part of This Whole Thing

No, it's not the [unfounded and deep, dark] fear that I'll be destitute and living on the streets.

Nor is it the fleeting thought that I will be an unproductive member of society (heck, half my pay goes down the drain at the Federal level anyway).

And it's not even the fear that I will get stuck in a job I hate just for the sake of bringing home a paycheck.

The worst part of all this was having to tell two of my people that they are being cut as well. That, while our company will do everything it can to find other employment for them, their futures are up in the air after November.

Because when my boss told me this, at least I was able to hide my emotion - from both her and myself, to a huge extent. But when I spoke to my folks, I started hearing bits and pieces of their lives about which I had no previous knowledge. Things that make me worry about their futures even more so than mine.

I have a huge issue with empathy, and stressing on behalf of other people. Reason #523 why I don't believe management is the place for me to be.